if i close my eyes

and concentrate really hard

can i get a message thru?

if i take all of my wants, needs and desires, narrow them down to the one thing i'm wanting most in the world right now.

focus

narrow

close eyes

concentrate

meditate

can i get it to come thru?

if i kneel on a bed of rice...

to show my remorse for not treasuring it

to show how bad i really want it

if i hold my breath

to represent the death that comes in its absence

until im dizzy and blue

will it ever come back?

will i ever feel...

alive again?